Things are Changing!

Ahhh its an exciting yet scary time at the moment in the Field Gillard household!

 

Today in the early morning I was awake nervously waiting to hear my brother get up to get ready to hear if he got the correct grades to get into uni. I was probably just as nervous as him but have tried to hide it well over the past few weeks, tried to make him feel as its not a big deal as he is young and has loads of opportunity's to choose from still.

 

So he got up and shared the great news that he got into Portsmouth uni! WOOO! Happy was an understatement, you could tell that he was relieved that all the stress, studying and late nights paid off and I am unbelievably proud of the kid! To be honest with you, he is the reason why I chose to stay at college and go to uni, he's a smart dude and I wanted to show him that I his big sister will chase for something big also.

 

So that's it, me and Danny boy shall be parting ways on our own two feet to study in the big world of university. Although I am so excited to make new friends, studying something that I am passionate for and to be living on my own with a bunch of other likewise students.......... I am also freaking out, and somewhat nervous about where ill be returning home and when ill be seeing my family and friends again. A bit dramatic I know.. as its not like I'm never going to see them again hahaa!

 

Anyway, these couple of weeks have been very eye-opening to me, things are going to change rather fast, and after spending a couple of days with my family I have started to make me realise that somethings are just are not worth worrying about.

 

I like to think I'm the type of person who supports people and tries to make them feel good about themselves, I I'm not perfect and make mistakes, but recently I feel that sometimes I tend to let people make me feel bad about myself and I tend to take it to heart which is my fault I know because I don't stick up for myself. Being with family really helped me see that time is better spent with people who are nice to you all the time. Its always fun to laugh at each other and I have no problem with laughing at myself, but when there is a line that is crossed it makes you rethink things, and life's way to short to be with people that make you feel bad about yourself. Which is why from now on I'm going to focus my attention on the people that like me for being weird, and strange and laugh about it, not the ones who see being that way as a negative thing.  

Whats been most great for me in these couple of weeks has been spending time with my brother. We've both been very busy in our own little lives these past couple of years and I don't think we've really spent that much time together, so it was nice playing a pointless game of catch, taking stupid pictures and playing a game of cards, simple activities but nice. Even though I embarrass him on probably a daily bases and he annoys me by telling me off for being stupid... I'm gonna miss the kid when we go away!

 

 

 

University will be the time of making friends, staying in touch with my friends/family and finding out what I'm good at and what I'm not.......... and I'm so looking forward to this adventure.

 

 

Speak soon my flower Potts! :D